I know this is just the beginning again, but I’m starting to lose hope. It’s different than before. I’m tired of trying for nothing and getting let down and end up with all this pain and despair. How am I so sure the feelings you have for me are still there? Something is not right, I can feel it. I just don’t know what it is. I hope you’re not leading me on, that would be like a slap across the face. But I don’t know, I guess time will tell. We’ll see what happens between us. I’m just going with the flow baby. I hope you know I am deeply madly in love with you.